The Capernoited Mind

Things I want to say:

I’ve never been very good with people in general; I always screw up stuff, anything related to relationship. I guess it’s because I’ve never really try to understand people, or get to know them better. To be honest, I don’t really see the point because people always leave you, and then you’ll wonder what you did wrong, and it’s frustrating. Really. You know, I wish I was one of those people who attract others but not because they look good but because they sound interesting, they have this thing that makes you want to waste your time with them. Those people, they’re lucky, most of the time they already have their life figured out, like what they’re going to become and what they want to do with their lives, they even know the names of their future kids and what type of dogs they’re gonna get when they’ll be 70. I wish I was like them, you know, so then I would just do what I have to do and stop looking for unknown stuff. I wanted my life to be fast and simple, like a highway, to marry someone even if I don’t want to, to have kids even if I hate them, to get a job even if it’s a boring one, to die with the love of my life. Ultraaaaa gay, I know. But isn’t it what everybody wants? Well even if it’s not, I’m pretty sure that’s what people end up being. Then I’ve meet you. And you’re a mess, like a really big mess, worse than me. But you’re still that kind of person I want to know, to be with you and talk about random stuff. And even if I screw things up and it doesn’t work the way I planned it, I’ll still be calling you at 3 am to tell you how sorry I am because I’m ready to waste all my time with you.

Things I say:

Hi, potato.